Friday, June 18, 2010

Mesmerized by a little angel...!!!

Sundays have always been hectic, since I have started working. Those cosy late mornings, bunking the lecture, skipping the lunch, all have suddenly vanished in blue. Life has changed, I have changed. Now I am among those people who get up at dot 7.30, sometimes fighting for 5 more minutes of sleep, getting ready and walking through the herd of human cattle at Andheri station, then gasping to breath to get into the local and secure a seat. Frankly life was good from the other side of the bridge.

It was 13th June, and I had to travel all the way down to Mulund, to meet my relatives. Had to get up early, so that I reach early and get back early too. Thus commenced my Sunday morning and the entire day went on good, with lots of talks and food. While coming back in the evening, I boarded a semi crowded local for Dadar and luckily got a fourth seat (well can be unlucky to as I was barely able to sit besides the two fat ladies). I was struggling hard to sit, fidgeting as much as I can to make the ladies shift a bit. Finally when I won the battle and was smiling at my laurels, I figured out a little angel dawdling behind a lady. But of course the lady making faces and looking at her angrily as her head would bump into her. Poor thing, the little girl was sleepy, and had to control her and in that crowd she can't even reach out to her mother.

Frankly even I started feeling sleepy now, looking at this drama for last 15 minutes. I wondered life was so different initially. There were no responsibilities and deadlines. But above all there were no tensions. Sleep when you want to, get up when you want to, eat live and be merry. All that my parents expected from me is to see me smiling all time.

Well coming back to the Sunday and the train, the little girl finally realised me noticing her. She looked at me for a few seconds and I smiled at her. I expected a smile in return but instead got a grim look (I tell you, even kids today have ego problems). She must be thinking I am mocking on her predicament of not being able to sleep. But baccha I pitied you and me too because after your grim look you indeed mesmerized me and now even I was following you towards the dreamland.

My eyes were now watery, they wanted to close and I felt they were heavy enough to remain open. But I can't sleep. It was against my principle I thought (as I always wondered how someone can sleep anywhere and everywhere). I felt like cursing this little angel. Wondered did she have any sort of power to hypnotize?

I struggled for almost five minutes (believe me it was very difficult) when the train got a bit vacated at Kurla and I shifted in the third place. Suddenly, the girl got up and went to her mom sitting in front making a 45 degree angle from the point where she was sitting initially. There she lay peacefully in her mom's arms. I felt jealous and for the first time missed my mom's lap so badly. But I was happy for her. I closed my eyes and sat till Dadar arrived and then before unboarding, I looked at her again. Now she smiled but the situation changed as now I stood in her shoes. I felt she was mocking now over my plight of being so away from my home, my mom. But as my duty of being elder to her, I smiled back and waved her a good bye.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

The Helpless Nature

The moon today was beautiful...it was so bright that it dismantled the darkness around....but thr was some thing missing in the nature...it was the wave of cool breeze in which the rigid trees can dance and swing....it seems nature too is helpless sumtimes to explore itself completely....jst like us
But then i wondered....Nature is helpless and can do nothing about it, but we can.
We have so many things around...so many opportunities but we tend to ignore them. Just because deep down in the heart we are sad and unable to adjust with what life gives us and the root cause for this is our thoughts. Its not our mood but our thoughts that are constantly pondering over the fact of "Lacking something" that makes us feel helpless. Frankly if u just divert your mind a bit....may be for a an hour or so and then rethink about your helplessness, you will find a solution.

Just don't let your mind conquer u....instead u conquer your mind...you should control it :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Poems...

Sapne wahi dekho jo saach ho...agar dil mein sacchi chahat aur sahas ho...
par aapne sapno mein nahi...aaj mein jio...
aapna aaj sunder aur kushhaal banao....kyuki aaj par nirbhar hai tumhara kal...
khusio se bhar do aaj ke har pal...
chahe jitna bhi kathin ho raasta...tum yeh baat mat bhulna...
ki...har andheri raat ke baad...suraj ko hai ugna...
na harna tum himmat...chahe jitni bhi mhsukilo ka ho samna...
aapne dil mein rakhna...aapne saapno ko saach karne ki ek kamana...
yaad rakhna yeh baat...aapne sapno ko wahi saach kar pate hai...
jo mushkilo se na daar ke...aapne sapno ki sundarta pe vishvaas karte hai...

SO,

Keep dreaming high like mountains....
show your abilities like fountains...
Never to turn back n see...
Flow seamlessly like the deep blue sea...
only then your will observe...
the talent you have preserved...in your mind...
but till now...you were blind...